Than it was time

Hi to all, as most of you know I went back to Spain. It was a very difficult decision but one that I had to take. If it´s the right one, time will tell. I can look back on a great 2 years. I have met a lot of different people, I have learnt new cultures and I have been in new situations. I have learned a lot about live and about myself. I will never take anything just for granted. I am very lucky beeing born in a free country and being able to travel and live in foreigh countries with no problems or more paper work than necessary. To have a house and food everyday. Health system that works. Also I learned to deal with people which I trusted and could not be trusted, that was a hard experience and a lesson for live. You can never be prepared for that 100% but it´s something to keep in mind. With this I also learned to know who are my friends. They are very valuable for me. And I am sure who reads this is, you are one of my friend! So to you, YOU ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME!

About the situation if South africa, the organisation www.Thalent.nl continues. We found a great lady within the community and she will make sure everything will continue. I am still in close contact with her and the organisation. For Khulani Simunye there is a little stop but will consider to continue in cooperation with Thalente I am very excited about that. We will see what the future brings.
As for my boys in the house, they have a beautifull future as well. One has taken his own path and is taking care of himself. the other one I had to leave him behind in a student residence but I am trying to bring him over to Spain. He has so much potential that I think he needs more oportunities and I think Spain (Europe) can offer him that. He is doing great at school and being more or less independant, at this moment, but there are some people who keep a little eye on him on a daily bases. I am very happy about that situation but I do miss him a lot but patients is something which I had to learn as well.

So the conclusion of this experience is very positive, I am a "richer" person, much more sensitive (who would ever thought that it could happen to me) and happy to have been part of some changes in peoples lives.

With lots of love,

Lilian

Is my father right.....he always is.........

It´s a longtime you heard from me again....a lot has been happening. As I told you besides by doing the things I am doing I also try to keep the organization Khulani Simunye running. It´s all a challenge. We had our first guest in January, 4 people form the organization “Thalente”. They help Khulani Simunye financially with school fees, registration cost etc...... and they decided to help me out as well...It´s because of them that I am able to continue what I am doing. What am I doing? Is it ok what I am doing? Is this what the people need? Am I really helping? Sometimes these questions come up. I always write about nice things that are happening because they stay the longest in my head but it is not always nice. I have been here now almost 2 years and I have met a lot of different kind of people. I have seen different kind of situations. I have seen people doing bad things to other people. People threatening each other, jealous people. People always asking for help, they are not willing to do anything. Lying people. Fake people....................but the people I felt for and that I came her to help are here also, somewhere. They are here for sure, I saw them again the other day, a teener boy trying his best to help his little brothers. The love and kindness in their eyes. But who is that person that you helped and now is taking it all for granted and gets angry when you can not help? Who is that person that you offer something and it´s not good enough? Why do I have to start watching my back? Do I have to question every step I make? Is this what I came her to do?.........
I came her for that teener boy that was not doing well and after a couple of conversations, big mistakes he made, I almost lost hope but now he is the best of his class and will continue as well as he can......That is why I am here!!!! For that boy that I have to kick his ass all the time but he still has dreams and tries to follow them, yes it cost me a lot of energy but he will get there and he appreciates it. It´s for that one that had a hard time but wants to full fill his dream and is doing great at school and is happy.
Another question I have...... I have been told not to give up my whole life for the people here in need because they are born here for a reason and I was born in Europe for another reason........Is this really true? I can not believe some one really makes a plan like that.

I can not safe the whole world but one at the time is enough..........that is what I believe in.

But still there is the question..... Is my father right when he says; What are you doing there, think about your future?...........................................

With love
Lilian